I Hate Birthdays (that aren't mine)

I hate birthdays. I hate going to birthday parties when my boyfriend is ABROAD. I hate getting dressed up, going out and have about 5-10 guys hit on me, practically stuff their numbers in my pockets while I bluntly refuse them because I have a boyfriend that WORKS ABROAD. Most of them think it's a joke or just a line I use to get them to stop talking to me. There have been times I feel I am going insane and that I made Nathan up to satisfy my imagination and my need to have him near me. That's not too weird, considering everyone around me thinks it's a LIE.

ARGH.

I would stay in, bore myself out of my mind but I can't. It's Silke's birthday, she is a co-worker and I promised months ago that I would show up. Bloody commitments. I am running out of outfits I want to wear that are not exceedingly pretty so I can save the really saucy ones for Nathan. I am wearing this to the party.

Idiotic Caterina won't even pay attention to me when I seriously need to speak with her. This is the REASON I don't have any friends >< It's because they are either busy with men or PREGNANT or... something.

Great. Now I have to go. And still... no word on Nathan. Though my father left me a message. That made things seem a bit... lighter.